When Will the Other Shoe Drop?
Enjoying good days is tough when we're worried they will end.
The other shoe is not going to drop.
Or maybe it is.
What are you gonna do about it anyway?
When things are going well with our bodies or our minds — especially when they weren’t for so long — it’s scary. It’s unfamiliar.
Waking up with less pain or no pain where there is always pain can feel… eerie.
Maybe your fatigue has lessened, your fog has lifted.
Perhaps you sense a little happiness.
You don’t trust it. You can’t.
You hold it a bit lightly, along with your hope.
It is still worth celebrating, because it is here today.
Instead, we don’t allow ourselves to experience the joy. We question. We doubt. We worry about when it will change.
Just like a person living in the lower apartment, we’ve stopped activity while tensely awaiting the loud crack of the other shoe above our heads.
Yet we cannot control these things.
At best, we can influence them. And improvements happen rather slowly.
Still, a good day will arrive.
Is it here to stay? Who can say?
But you are.
And you’ve got to live now and let go of the worry about tomorrow and what it brings.
Focusing on the future, just like living in the past, steals us away from today.
We miss out on what we are experiencing now — which is especially problematic when we are feeling well.
We really don’t know when or if the other shoe will drop. Cringing and bracing for impact is no way to live.
So we keep putting one foot in front of the other,
Shoes be damned.
kek
Note: This post was initially published on my Medium site.
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